She knew she'd lost him then...

The day he said, “we should talk things out”; she knew deep within, she’d lost him then.

She shouldn’t have gone to meet him; she knew she shouldn’t have… But her heart won over her head, and there she was with him in his room. He kept giving her reasons for why they can’t be together and she kept ignoring the words, just feeling! Feeling happy to be by his side. Feeling protected in his arms just like she’d always felt. Feeling content in that moment of distressful isolation. she knew she’d lost him then but her heart still said no.

 “The family vacation should put things in perspective. We both need this break”, he said. She knew she’d lost him then, but her heart wanted to believe in him. She waited for the calls that never came. The messages that were a routine became her longing… but she told to herself that he’s busy and everything will be ok. She knew she’d lost him then but her heart still said no.

“There’s no point in me being in her life if I can’t justify her love” he said to her friend while she silently sat beside him, gently wiping her tears that trickled down to her heart, moistening it further more. He was the man that once made her believe in love and he was the man that told her love didn’t exist. She knew she’d lost him then, but why did her heart still say no?

All her friends came to her rescue, that’s what friends always do. They cheered her up, guided her, held her when she was about to fall. He still remained in her every thought- sometimes evident to all and sometimes seen by none. She knew she’d lost him then and yet she didn’t want to know!

It’s been a while now… and everything remains unchanged. Life moves on as it always does and people also change. She is strong and she is level headed and she will find her way. She knows she has lost him, but her heart she can’t convince…